Early Pregnancy Symptoms and Big Fat Positives
Almost 40, BFP following miscarriage 7 months ago.
I am going to be 40 years old in June; I have 2 children from a previous marriage, age 10 and 11. Hubs is 39 as well, with no children, no previous marriages. We became pregnant unexpectedly last June. I had been using birth control at that time, but we went away just overnight to celebrate our first year together and, of course, I forgot to pack it...we took a risk and in July, I found out I was pregnant from that one time! I had a lot of mixed feelings initially, but then just as I was getting excited, I lost it. I was only about 7 weeks along at the time of the miscarriage. I knew that we were getting older, and if we were going to have a baby, we needed to do it soon. Hubs has always wanted a child of his own. I have 2 great kids, a boy and girl, and I didn't want to be selfish with trying to have another. However, I was open to the idea. We decided just to stop using birth control and see what happened. I tried to be casual about it, and let it play out, but try as I might, every single month since that miscarriage, I obsessed with symptoms and was convinced each month that I was pregnant. I would read these BFP stories obsessively and look at symptoms listed, and I swear, I had symptoms that seemed to be so specific to pregnancy. However, every month, despite being "casual" I would pee on stick after stick to be disappointed time and time again. I would get my AF, then I would be sad, but make peace with it, try to enjoy my kids and husband and I would move on...until ovulation time and the TWW. I would turn into a crazy lady...I think I have read every story, every site, every folk tale about how to tell if you are prego in the TWW...month after month...Fast forward 7 months. I got my BFP yesterday at 12DPO, using CVS brand early PT. If I compare this time to when I miscarried, I have symptoms that I did not have, and my BFP then was actually very faint at a week past my period. My BFP yesterday, 2 days before my period was faint, but darker than the one I got in the summer. In fact, in the summer, I didn't have any symptoms beyond missing a period. I am hopeful that this time will stick since I have some actual symptoms. (And, I think it may have been a CP, not necessarily a miscarriage in July.) On the night of ovulation, I had a dream, a very weird dream!!! It was so clear, seemed like I was watching a PBS special of a sperm meeting the egg. I woke up thinking that I had conceived that night, but like so many other months...I did not want to get my hopes up. Plus, I was scared that my crazy was reaching a whole new level requiring intervention!!! My BBs are always sore (sometimes very sore and swollen) from ovulation to period, and this time was no different. The only difference was that they sometimes become less sore as AF approaches, and this time, it stayed consistent. No blue veins to note, but that's because I already have them anyway. One other thing, that may help others, were that my nipples felt slightly tingly, like when you get cold and they get hard, but they weren't necessarily hard, they just felt that way. 5DPO woke feeling hot and sweaty (this sometimes happens before AF, but not this soon) 6DPO nipples felt tingly like when you get cold, BBs sore like before AF. Headache. 7DPO BBs more sore. 8DPO BBs sore, slightly more than previous day, and low back ache. 9DPO Low back ache again, BBs sore, indigestion!!! Indigestion, this was new for me and made me wonder...I just felt yucky after eating, overly full, and almost sick. 10DPO nothing other than sore BBs and tired. Fell asleep before DH, very rare for this to happen. 11DPO headache in the evening, woke up hot in the night, hot in the morning, and BBs still pretty sore still. Fell asleep before DH, never happens, especially twice. 12DPO BBs sore, Hot in the morning when waking, so tired despite being able to sleep in, tingly sensation is back in BBs. Took test in afternoon...BFP!!!! 13DPO tired, tired, tired! BBs feel enormous, heavy, sore to touch. So, the dream tipped me off, but you start to think you are crazy after all these months and I didn't really know if that was intuition or my insanity. The slight difference in tingly nipples, backache, and indigestion were the symptoms that gave me a reason to make the trip to CVS in the middle of the afternoon. I hope this helps someone. I want to thank everyone who posted things these past 7 months. It helped to read the stories of all of you who have struggled to conceive and then to see the BFP, it gave me some hope. Goodluck to all of you still trying!