Early Pregnancy Symptoms and Big Fat Positives
BFP after 6 years TTC!
I honestly can't believe I am writing my BFP story! I've stalked this site for years trying to convince myself not to give up all hope. I got pregnant naturally 9 years ago with my ex partner accidentally after a laparoscopy for endo. Sadly that ended in a m/c (baby had a chromosomal problem). I met my now husband in 2008 and I came off contraception in 2010, thinking it would happen as easily as it did last time but that was not the case. Tried to conceive for 3 years with no luck before deciding to go to the doctor after we got married in 2013. Then started the proper monitoring of my cycles, which were all over the place. Went for scans and investigations where they decided I had PCOS. Started seeing my fertility doctor early 2014 and he said we would see how things go but I will probably need IVF. Got freaked out and kept postponing my appointments until I got my head together again. In 2015 we started 6 rounds of clomid 50mg, nothing happened. I told my doctor that I fell pregnant after a laparoscopy before and I wanted to try it again. He agreed and said he would also perform ovarian drilling. I had the operation in January 2016. My periods sort of regulated but still nothing happened. Asked if I could try clomid again and he agreed but said after this IVF was our only option, totally heartbroken. People around me kept getting pregnant, sometimes twice in the time I had been trying and I cried everytime. He prescribed 2 months of clomid at 25mg and then another 3 months at 50mg. Well on my second cycle of clomid 25mg (the first time I took it bang on the same time every day) days 2-6 we decided to just relax. Previously I had tried everything. Headstands, lying down with my hips elevated, you name it I tried it. This month I decided just to relax (one of the hardest things to do when TTC) and just went with the flow. I didn't monitor where I was in my cycle so I don't know exactly when all my symptoms started or where I was in my cycle when they did. I started to get my usual symptoms before my period, cramps, backache, sore boobs so was convinced AF was on her way. It got to day 34 (first time I looked at what day I was on) and I thought it was strange to be that late on clomid but after reading some posts on the internet I discovered it is possible to have late cycles on clomid so I was gutted, thought here we go everything is messed up again. The days went by, still no sign of AF, boobs were still sore, tired and backache. Started to want to eat a lot more. Finally on day 40 I thought, I better test and see. Used FMU and almost instantly a faint line appeared! I thought I was imagining it so shouted to DH who was still in bed and he confirmed he saw the line too! It then got darker and darker. Did another test later on in the day and BFP again! We were literally over the moon! My biggest indicator was that although my symptoms were similar to AF, they felt 'slightly' different. Things we did differently this month was relax, no charting, BD whenever we felt like it not regimented. Also, I started reading a book called 'The Secret' and started visualising having a baby and BFP rather than being negative and thinking it will never happen. I still can't believe I'm pregnant, I'm approx 6 weeks now and have nausea, bloating, mild cramping, back ache and extreme tiredness. I'm now trying to not panic about everything which is really hard! All I can say to everyone TTC is never give up. I swore I would keep going, I would have my baby one day and my prayers have been answered. Sending lots of baby dust to all still TTC, I know it is the absolute worst but it will happen one day. Praying now for a healthy and safe pregnancy x