Early Pregnancy Symptoms and Big Fat Positives
BFP at 12 DPO
Like most of you I have read through these stories for hope and strength during the TTC process. On Mother's Day 2016 I found out that I was expecting our first baby. Sadly at 10 weeks 4 days the baby quit growing and the heart stopped beating but this was undiscovered until our 12 week ultrasound. The bones that make up the baby's skull did not develop properly and there would have been no viability no matter what. I took the miscarriage hard. It was so difficult to celebrate and be happy for other friends when they announced that they were expecting. I had days of anger, resentment, etc. Why would this happen to us? My husband and I have a loving home and I felt robbed of something.
I had a D&C in July and five weeks later I got my first period. The part they don't tell you is that your body continues to think it's pregnant so you've got a lot of hormones running through your body those first few weeks after the D&C. I really tried SO hard to get pregnant every month after that and was devastated each time it didn't happen.
Thankfully I was able to work through the depression and pain and really got to a place of peace about our loss. I encourage anyone who is grieving to give yourself time, focus on other hobbies and interests, and take time every day to breathe and relax. Also don't make the BD time so "clinical", it should be fun. I used my FitBit relax feature once or twice a day last month. Now in to the exciting news... :)
January 1: got my period, happy frikkin New Year
BD on January 9, 10, 11, 12, 14
I had EWCM on January 11 and 12. Confirmed ovulation on January 12 with Clearblue OPK.
1-2 DPO: nothing
3 DPO: EWCM, very strange because I never get it after
4 DPO: feeling like I'm getting a cold
5 DPO: diagnosed with the flu! 101.5 degree temp, chills, aches etc
6-11 DPO: resting heart rate goes up 10 BPM on FitBit. Flu had me resting and sleeping a lot
12 DPO: on a whim I decided to test but I didn't want to waste a FRER test so I used a wondfo OVULATION test! It was immediately two dark lines. I still wasn't convinced so I used a clear blue ovulation test and got a smiley face... i knew then that I should use a FRER. I dipped it in and it was a dark positive very quickly. And, being the Type A person I am, I used a digital clearblue to confirm right after. I was in total shock. My husband and I both cried.
I have already been to the doctor and had everything confirmed with a blood test.
I am excited to share our story of loss and hope, and I hope that it helps bring encouragement to anyone else who has gone through miscarriage.
Praying that this is a sticky bean :)