Early Pregnancy Symptoms and Big Fat Positives
Finally! After 8 months...
Yesterday morning as I got ready I was flipping through the most recent BFP stories (when will it be MY turn, right?) one caught my eye that said "I got four positive OPKS on day period was due and later got BFP". So of course, I have 60000 OPKs, so I tried it-- hey, AF wasn't here yet so why not? Well I'll be... I got four positive opks on CD 30. Weird. Shouldn't I FEEL pregnant if I was, though? After much encouragement from my husband, we bought a test and I was so sure it would be negative (like usual) that I refused to pee. When I finally couldn't hold it anymore I gave up a sample and my husband watched the test. Positive in about 3 seconds. I have endometriosis, I am 30, and had a hystersalpingogram scheduled for next week and a sperm analysis for my husband. We've been actively trying for 8 months and off BC for 15 months. I had given up. I was internally angry at all the pregnant women at the airport or in the grocery store, and when I saw some of the horrible crimes mothers were committing against their children on the news I would sob for days. I still cannot believe that this happened for us, with all the cards stacked against us, and a long road of in vitro up ahead. It happened naturally, we used nothing special, I DIDN'T cut back on anything (like coffee which I had given up while trying 6 months ago), I didn't lay with my legs in the air, and I certainly DID NOT think this was our month. So please please all you ladies out there hurting like I was-- loosen up, let go of a few things, and it will probably happen. Now I have a ton of fertility appointments to go cancel, and a ton of wishes for all you ladies waiting so patiently. I've been there too. Xoxo