Early Pregnancy Symptoms and Big Fat Positives
How quickly things can change
BFP stories on the internet are beautiful. A giant library of women sharing and supporting - and getting support. Even if we know symptom spotting is rather pointless, and even if the risk is high that I'll mcing, I will still share my story:
I'm 40. OH left me 4 yrs ago, just when we had decided to try for a baby. I got depressed and realized after a year that I didn't have the energy and strength to work on yet another relationship. Instead I spent my time coming to terms with living a life without kids. This was a difficult process, and one that I never had thought I would had to go through.
Fast forward to now: I eventually realized that my last chance of getting preggo was soon as I for the last couple of years have noticed pre-menop symptoms. I also knew OH wanted me back, and wanted a child. I decided that I would regret not taking this chance so I invited him over two months ago for a 3-nights' stay. That month I got a faint BFP with strong symptoms - headache, v sore breasts, sore throat, etc, and a Massive night sweat (prev unheard of) the night before I started bleeding, around 2 days overdue. Then bfn. I was however mostly puzzled that we had conceived, and I am still not sure it was a proper bfp.
I don't chart or temp but I am fairly regular, so I invited him back last month for a 5-night stay. We BDed three times; twice doggy s. I fell asleep afterwards without going to the loo. I remember tossing and turning a bit. I could tell that when he came he made an effort to stay deep inside of me, and 'move around'. I think this is absolute key to our 'success' - his effort. Anyhow, I got BFP (again!) four days ago and this time I feel pregnant, like 'stable', unlike last month which was mainly a havoc of hormonal imbalance.
since i don't chart i'll say dps (days post sex) and still this is just an estimate
1-3 dps - uterus felt 'full', or a 'slight pressure'
3-4 dps - more appetite than usual
5-8 dps - nothing
9 dps - white discharge, unusual for me, slight headache, also unusual
9 - now - uterus felt 'full', or a 'slight pressure' again
10 dps - white discharge again, sweet smell, tested bfn
10 dps - freezing in the afternoon
12 dps - faint bfp pink dye
13 dps - slightly stronger bfp, I actually trust my own eyes for once. I couldn't stop Eating that evening.
13-now - there is a smell around me (coming from me), which I feel constantly, not bad but not nice. milky, sweet, old, murky
Today is 15 dps no AF yet, normally I spot for several day before F. I haven't taken any more tests because I do feel pregnant and solid. White discharge today, pulling sensation in lower abdomen, slightly sore breasts, Appetite.
I still haven't told OH, I will wait a few more days since I'm very likely to mc according to stats. But Hey, look how quickly life can change.