Early Pregnancy Symptoms and Big Fat Positives
Surprise BFP Already 3 1/2 Months Pregnant with Rainbow Baby!!
This is going to be a long post! We are still in shock that God has answered our prayers to be parents as we decided to stop TTC and trust in his plan for us. As soon as we surrendered to him and trusted in him He gave us our biggest blessing! God is faithful, trust in HIS timing! Our story begins like most women. We began TTC in September 2014 with the hopes of getting pregnant ASAP. When it didn't happen immediately I tried not to stress too bad. My cycles were very short and by March 2015 I was beginning to think something wasn't right with my body. My dr took some blood work and I was diagnosed with PCOS with high testosterone levels and I was most likely not ovulating on my own. The diagnosis really stung but I had a lot of hope in the 50 mg Clomid she prescribed for us. March 13th I got my period and went in 21 days later for a progesterone check. My progesterone was 37 and we found out April 10th that I was indeed 4 weeks pregnant. We were amazed the Clomid worked the first round. My DH and I were so excited and we told close friends and family. We began to start thinking of what it would be like to have a baby and be parents. The planning had already began!! However, the day of April 24th will forever be etched in my mind as it was the day I began to miscarry our baby at 6 weeks 1 day. It was devastating, and at the time I spent most days being angry and bitter at God for taking away our child. After that I determined I could get pregnant immediately again without God, and after my period returned in June we started the second round of Clomid. BFN. Third round BFN. Fourth round BFN. By October I could feel God was screaming at me to just listen to him but I ignored him once again. I was still trying to work through the grief of loosing my baby and TTC was my outlet to ignore the pain. I wanted to try Femara in October as I was just convinced my body was used to Clomid by now. By this point I wasn't even getting a natural period and had to be induced on Provera. I felt so broken as a woman. And to top it off my DH got a sperm analysis and had only 11 million sperm count. I got my progesterone checked after the first round of Femara and I didn't ovulate. This was rock bottom for me. Why God? Why didn't you want us to be parents? Why us? The pregnancy Facebook announcements seemed so cruel. Then something hit me like a ton of bricks. I finally let God in and began listening to him. I started to surrender everything to him. All of my own plans for motherhood, my worries, fears, etc. It was not easy at first. He was telling me this entire time to TRUST him and his plan in our lives. He started by canceling our next doctor's appointment scheduled for November 23rd. The receptionist called and told me that I was scheduled on accident for that week and since it was thanksgiving that week they were only seeing OB patients. I could have rescheduled but I knew this was Gods first sign for us. I amazingly got a natural period on November 21st. However, December 9th I started "spotting" for 9 days straight. I was convinced my hormones were messed up from the drugs. I continued to pray for strength and grieved our baby's due date in December. In January we began visiting a church. Every week the preacher would talk about the power of prayer and how important it is to hold on to your faith even when you don't feel like God is listening. We held on tight. This was so hard for me, as I felt like I failed him daily. I STILL wanted to be pregnant! January came and went with no period. The first week of February I took 5 days of Provera I had left and then realized I had momentarily stopped listening to God. I didn't continue with the Provera after I felt God telling me this was not his plan. Usually when I would take Provera I would get my period on day 3 of the pill but when nothing happened I thought it was really odd. February came and I continued to pray for strength daily and trusted more and more in Gods plan for us. I would tell him daily that even though I would give anything to be pregnant, he's plan is far greater than anything I could understand. Most people are probably wondering why didn't you take a pregnancy test if you weren't getting a period? Some woman can relate to the absolute devastation of seeing a negative pregnant test over and over again, and since I knew what it was like to be pregnant already, I hadn't had any symptoms and therefore no need to test! Lol The Sunday before we found out we were expecting, the preacher at church preached about how he felt God was speaking to someone there. He said God was telling someone that it was going to be the end of their night season and their morning would be coming soon. This gives me chills thinking about this. On Saturday March 5th I had noticed my breast were fuller than usual. On a whim I decided, let's just test so I can once and for all confirm I'm not pregnant (after 3 months with no period you start to loose it a little). WELL we indeed received the shock of our lives when all 4 tests came up blazing positive. My DH and I praise God every day for this baby he is continuing to create in my belly! Wednesday March 9th it was confirmed baby measured 13w6d and his/her heart rate was 160. The best day in a long time!! Doctor said I most likely conceived between the 10-17 of December. I had NO classic pregnancy symptoms that stuck out to me (no morning sickness, no sore breasts) just cramping that I thought was because I was going to get my period soon. Our rainbow baby is due In September 2016. God is faithful!! Listen for his plan for you, the wait will pay off.