Early Pregnancy Symptoms and Big Fat Positives
TTC 5 years IVF Miracle against all odds
I cannot believe I am finally able to post a BFP story.
We have been actively trying for 5 years and passively trying for 4 years prior to that.
We've tried everything under the sun. BBT tracking, Preseed, Soft cups, Clear Blue monitors, OPKs, acupuncture, Chinese herbs, Mayan abdominal massage, yoga, diet change, so many different supplements, 2 failed IVFs, hypnotherapy, gave up caffeine alcohol cigarettes.. you name it we have done it. Saw so many different specialists that supposedly got even the most infertile couples pregnant. Spent tens of thousands of dollars but nothing worked for us! I had low ovarian reserve, adenomyosis from two terminated pregnancies, high TSH, Low FSH, DH had low count, motility and morphology. Odds were against us. We took breaks for a few months every now and then just to keep our sanity and live our lives normally. I was reaching the end of my rope and honestly ready to give up and come to terms with a life with no kids.
I was on the phone with my mother from Korea and telling her we would be trying until the end of the year and if it doesn't happen by then I think I can say with confidence we have tried everything in our power and the rest is not up to us. That we would just live our lives happily without kids. She agreed that is a good plan but suggested that we try one last IVF round in Korea. Then she would drop the subject as well. But something was telling her that we should give it a try in Korea.
We agreed and took 3 months to prepare ourselves physically and mentally to give ourselves the best outcome for our final try. I continued with acupuncture and herbs as well as prenatal, fish oil, vitamin D, probiotics good diet and exercise. A new thing I added just for my own peace of mind was fertility coaching and drinking 4 cups of red raspberry leaf infusion and red clover infusion. Every single thing I did played a part especially the coaching. Also being super relaxed at my mom's house where I didn't have to lift a finger or think about work.
I came back from Korea 8dpt. Was told to wait and get a blood test after 10 days. I did not poas as I have had so much disappointment and didn't want false negatives or positives. At around 11 days I did get a blood test and the result was BFP!!! I was on tons of progesterone so I had the sore boobs on and off, the twinges, and late period. I've experienced all this before with bfns so just tried to ignore these symptoms. The one symptom that was really strange was the crazy fatigue. A few days before my blood test I would start to yawn uncontrollably in the middle of the day. Also I almost fell asleep at the wheel of my car a couple times driving home from work. This has never happened to me in my life. It was like I took a sleeping pill or something. This crippling fatigue continued through until about week 12.
I believe the moment we emptied our expectations and made peace with not having a child was the moment the door opened for us. I know it sounds ironic and doesn't make sense. Believe me I was there. It took me many years to understand this concept. I hope this helps some of you ladies out there. Baby dust to you all.