Early Pregnancy Symptoms and Big Fat Positives
When Hope Was Lost: Endometriosis
For the past 2 years, I would stalk these posts, hoping and praying that I may just receive my BFP! As the months passed, which later turned into years, I started to accept the fact that I simply may never be a Mother. After my first year of TTC, I went to my OBGYN, and he scheduled me for Laparascopy surgery. At the time, I was 31 years old, my periods would come every 30 days like clockwork, and we could not figure out why I was not able to conceive. During the surgery, he found several issues with endometriosis. My doctor removed polyps, as well as adhesions, and told me my fallopian tubes were clear! I figured "this is it!", that I could finally conceive! 1 month later turned into 6 months later and STILL nothing! I finally decided to quit. Quit tracking ovulation, quit temping, quit testing. It was too difficult of a disappointment to continue with. I should also mention that I have a severely tilted Uterus as well, making it a but more difficult to conceive. There was a time when I was even 5 days late, which was not typical, however, AF still showed. So let's fast forward to today! I received my BFP on 20 dpo, however, 20 dpo was also the first test I had taken, so I very well could have known prior to that, had I have tested. I did not have much in terms of symptoms, however, I believe I was also in denial, because i simply believed it could not happen and was sick of my body playing jokes on me! How cruel is it that PMS and pregnancy symptoms are nearly one in that same?! So here are the following "symptoms", really, lack thereof, that I experienced before my bfp: Generally, my boobs become sore after ovulation. At the very least, they will hurt atleast 5 days before AF. This time, I had NO sore boobs! Nothing, until 17 dpo, when my nipples were sensitive and sore. I just figured AF was arriving late. My biggest indicator ended up being MOODINESS! I am generally a happy/optimistic person, even during AF. Only a handful of my periods have I been somewhat bitchy and only for a day or two. Let me tell you what...I was a straight BIIATTCCHHH!! For over a week! Just snapping off at the dumbest things, telling everyone about themselves...it was pretty bad. After a week and half straight of wearing a panty liner, and no show of AF...I finally started thinking, hmm, maybe I should take a test. I was in so much denial. I never wanted to get my hopes up, and even when I was taking the test, I walked away telling myself it was going to be a BFN, and asked myself why I even bothered. I walked back into my bathroom maybe 2 minutes later to a fairly dark PLUS sign!!!!! I was in SHOCK. My heart sank to the pit of my stomach and I'm not sure I have ever been more surprised from something in my entire life! Therefore, my only symptoms were NOT having sore boobs, and moodiness. Now, at 24 dpo, I find myself burping a lot, sleeping a lot, and feeling twinges/pulling sensations. My boobs are fuller and heavy and it is still only my nipples that are sore. I just want to encourage those who have lost hope that anything is possible. I never believed I would be pregnant and now I am praying for a healthy, sticky baby! When I quit temping and quit putting strain on DH and just relaxed, is when it happened. I had a general idea of O from all the tracking I had done months/years prior and knew what ovulation symptoms to look out for. Other than that, just go with the flow. Symptom spotting never got me anywhere and I find it ironic that I fell pregnant with nearly no symptoms at all prior to testing. Good luck to all you ladies TTC, I know it is a difficult journey, but you will get there!