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No one told me or could have prepared me for infertility
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female
24 years old
United States
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| MY DETAILS |
| CURRENTLY: |
Trying to Conceive #1 |
| CHILDREN: |
No children yet |
| WORK: |
Work outside the home |
| PRIMARY INFERTILITY: |
Male Factor |
| SECONDARY INFERTILITY: |
None |
| LAST LOGIN: |
12/15/2008 21:35:58 |
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| MY FAVORITE THINGS |
I LOVE...
DAVID,TOBEY, SHOPPING, READING, BEING WITH
FRIENDS, T.V AND MY FAMILY
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| HOBBIES |
I enjoy tv (to much) I love one tree
hill, the oc, greys anatomy, private practice, any
reality shows, big brother,gossip girl, 90210, the
hills, bromance, the city, bad girls club, mommas
boys, the girls next door and lost! I love
spending time with my husband, family and friends.
I love music all kinds and I am clearly obsessed
with the computer! We have a new puppy named Tobey
and he is my baby!
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| MUSIC/FAVORITE ARTISTS |
I love all kinds of music! I like Kenny
Chesney, Tim Mcgraw, Brittney Spears, AC/DC,
Journey, Guns and Roses, Carrie Underwood, T-Pain,
anything but hard rap!
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***Thoughts on Becoming a Mother***
There are women that become mothers
without effort, without thought, without patience
or loss and though they are good mothers and love
their children, I know that I will be better.
I will be better not because of genetics, or money
or that I have read more books, but because I have
struggled and toiled for this child.
I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed.
I have endured and planned over and over again.
Like most things in life, the people who truly
have appreciation are those who have struggled to
attain their dreams. I will notice everything
about my child.
I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore
and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every
day for the rest of my life.
I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the
night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can
comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not
waking to take another temperature, pop another
pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken
dream. My dream will be crying for me. I count
myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me
this insight, this special vision with which I
will look upon my child that my friends will not
see.
Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to
or a child that God leads me to, I will not be
careless with my love.
I will be a better mother for all that I have
endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a
better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister
because I have known pain.
I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by
my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell
many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.
I have prevailed. I have succeeded. I have won. So
now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from
their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I
see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs. I
listen.
And even though I cannot make it better, I can
make it less lonely. I have learned the immerse
power of another hand holding tight to mine, of
other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept
the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I
have learned a compassion that only comes with
walking in those shoes. I have learned to
appreciate life. Yes I will be a wonderful mother.
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~What God meant when he gave me infertility~
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Couples experiencing infertility often receive
well-meaning but extremely insensitive "advice."
We can all list the most popular ones: "Just relax
and you'll get pregnant," or "Adopt and you'll get
pregnant." Of the most painful from those who
think they've got the goods on God's plan, "Maybe
God never meant for you to have children." The
sheer audacity of making a statement like that
never fails to amaze me. "These same people would
never walk up to someone seeking treatment for
cancer and say, "Maybe God never meant for you to
live." However, because I am infertile, I'm
supposed to get on with my life. It's hard to
understand that people cannot see infertility for
what it is, a disease for which I have to seek
treatment. What if Jonas Salk had said to the
parents of polio victims, "Maybe God meant for
thousands of our children to be cripples, live in
an iron lung or die." What if he'd never tried to
find a cure? Who could think for one minute that
that was God's plan? What do I think God meant
when he gave me infertility? I think he meant for
my husband and me to grow closer, become stronger,
love deeper. I think God meant for us to find the
fortitude within ourselves to get up every time
infertility knocks us down. I think God meant for
our medical community to discover medicines,
invent medical equipment, create procedures and
protocols. I think God meant for us to find a cure
for infertility. No, God never meant for me not to
have children. That's not my destiny; that's just
a fork in the road I'm on. I've been placed on the
road less traveled, and, like it or not, I'm a
better person for it. Clearly, God meant for me to
develop more compassion, deeper courage, and
greater inner strength on this journey to
resolution, and I haven't let Him down. Frankly,
if the truth be known, I think God has singled me
out for a special treatment. I think God meant for
me to build a thirst for a child so strong and so
deep that when that baby is finally placed in my
arms, it will be the longest, coolest, most
refreshing drink I've ever known. While I would
never choose infertility, I cannot deny that a
fertile woman could never know the joy that awaits
me. Yes, one way or another, I will have a baby of
my own. And the next time someone wants to offer
me unsolicited advice I'll say, "Don't tell me
what God meant when He handed me infertility. I
already know."
I believe this is why God gave me infertility! He
never gives us anything we can’t handle without
his help!!
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andi'm going to go home and use bleach, windex, comet, whatever i can find to clean with. i'm going to sniff glue. i'm going to help dh paint walls or something random. (AND BREATHE IN ALOT just for fun) i'm going to lift the laundry basket like there's no tomorrow. HAPPY NEW YEAR
Istopped by to see how you were doing and to see if you had gotten your BFP yet. I was so sad to see you weren't going to be ttc in 09. I'm sure that will be good for you to relax...but with ttc for so long I don't think I could ever NOT ttc...or get it out of my head when we were bd'ing and what cd I was on. I wish you the best though in the new year!
I'mhopeful...but still very nervous about seeing all those BFNs. Plus- I have 3 friends now who are pg around me so it's getting harder to not be pg. But...I'm sure you understand, huh?
