Hey ladies!
My name's Krissy, I'm a proud mama of a gorgeous
little boy who my husband and I tried and prayed
so hard to be blessed with for over 2 years.
Doctors couldn't figure out why we weren't getting
pregnant, and with my husband already having a
daughter, I spent countless months testing,
getting negative after negative, and curling up in
the corner of the bathroom, swearing that I was
broken. It would drive me crazy to see these
ridiculous druggies running around with their 5
kids, half the time, the kids looked as dirty and
malnourished as their 'mothers'. It broke my heart
and tore me apart because all I could think
was...why not me? I would devote my life to a
child, and I couldn't understand why, after all
the trying and praying, that we still didn't have
a child. In November of 2007, I went down to see
my grandma, who I was extremely close to, and was
talking about how we were having a hard time
starting a family and how I wanted a child so, so,
so much...she just smiled and said, it would
happen. She had cancer of nearly everything, and I
lost her January 5th, 2008, and we got our BFP on
January 31st, 2008...really makes me believe that
she helped us. I don't see any other explanation.
I'm sure a lot of people think that's weird, but
my husband and I and my family strongly believe
that we had something helping us stronger than any
surgery or medication a doctor could ever
prescribe. Our son, Brayden Michael was born
October 3rd, 2008 and we couldn't be happier!! We
absolutely adore him! He got to meet his sister
for the first time December 19th when she was home
for her Christmas break and he is just absolutely
fascinated with her!
On January 5th, 2009, we found out we were
pregnant with #2, a year to the day that I lost my
grandma, so I was super excited that it happened
that day, it made her passing easier to deal with.
On February 19th, I walked into Wal Mart to buy
some groceries and as soon as I walked through the
door, I started gushing blood and had to run out
and call my doctor, who in turn told me to get to
the hospital ASAP, she did an ultrasound, and
there was our peanut, but no little flickering
heartbeat. We were devastated...on February 20th,
my peanut decided it was time to go, and I
miscarried that morning after what I can only
describe as the most painful emotional and
physical thing I have ever experienced. We are
waiting for AF to show and as of March 14th, I've
had some pretty bad cramps so I'm hoping she'll
come soon so I can get back on track.
****ANOTHER UPDATE**** On October 26th, 2009, I
got 2 super dark BFP's and AF was barely due THAT
day! Hope this one sticks so my Brayden will be a
big brother next year. EDD is.....the 4th of
July!!!!!
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