Title: Yup, time to see someone
Category: stressed
Blog Entry: Before I even get into that, we scheduled DH's second SA today. He will go in on Monday. I'm really hoping we get some better results. It's a little depressing, but this week I'm starting to notice little things about myself that I'm not happy with. One is my attitude with people (mostly family). I'm totally bitchy all the time and go in waves. That is not me. The other, I'm starting to avoid friends. This is so not me at all. I'm very outgoing and love my friends, but I'm not returning calls, emails, FB messages. The reason? Totally scared someone will tell me they are pregnant and I will go nuts. My best friend doesn't want kids, always said she hasn't. Lately she's been trying to get a hold of me, saying she needs to see me and we have to do dinner soon. Well, I've avoided her because I'm worried she'll get me in public and tell me she's expecting. Mind you, she has no idea I've been trying or anything. Also, I just cancelled a friends gathering this weeked. Why? One of our other friends is pregnant and I don't want to hear about it. THIS IS NOT GOOD! Soooooooooo, two options. One is the looney bin. Really? I have to be somewhat sane still. So, the other is some sort of help. I think I'm just going to start with acupuncture. Also, I've been looking for RESOLVE meetings near here. Perhaps these are my next steps. Man, I was totally just a bummer. Sorry girls. OTOH, good luck to Christina tomorrow with her IUI! Kick nature back in her pipes, girlfriend! LOL
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