My Family

I'm a wife and mother of 2 beautiful children. My husband and I started our family very young. Both pregnancies were unplanned and total surprise for us. After my daughter was born I immediately had the IUD placed. We've worked very hard to create a beautiful home and family life for our children. We thought we were done having kids. But as they get older we realize how fast they grow, and how much we miss having a baby around. Now that we are older and stable in every area of our life we've started to think what a great thing to be able to actually plan for another child. It's funny how life works. After 4 years in September 2006 at a routine visit, I lived in the moment and had my iud removed. I kinda freaked and started to question if I really wanted to do it again, or if it was just a stage I was going through. At five months old my daughter was diagnosed with a Congenital diaphragmatic hernia. All those memories and feelings quickly came back to me. Immediate surgery fixed her and now besides a scar on her belly you could never even tell anything was ever wrong. She's as healthy as can be. Still unsure and terrified history would repeat itself, I had the Mirena Iud placed in two weeks later. I didn't like the way my body reacted to the new Iud so in January 2007 I had it removed. Until were for sure in our future plans I went on the birth control pill. By March we had done some research on our daughters defect and talked with our pediatrician and a genetic dr. We even talked with our kids asking them what their feeling were if they had another brother or sister. Explaining to them how things would change. They were ready and wanted a new baby. So it pretty much was a family decision. We were all ready for a new baby. I went off the pill and April was our first month of ttc. When I set my mind to something I always go full force and with my whole heart. For 3 weeks I used opks, on the third week I ovulated. My whole family was rooting for us. I had daily calls from my sister and my mother asking if I had taken a test yet. After many negative tests I had given up. I promised myself I would not waste another $20 on a hpt. Finally my sister being so excited and wanting me to be pregnant as bad as I did purchased a hpt. With all hope lost I took it expecting a BFN. To my surprise there it was, clear as day, "PREGNANT" I was soooo surprised. My whole family was just so happy and excited for us. My children were the most excited. Unfortunately it was only short lived. Exactly a week later, I started to bleed, and was told I had a "Chemical Pregnancy" I knew it was too good to be true. I was heart broken, all that excitement built up shattered with tears. Not only by me but my mother and sister too. Which I feel, made it worse. This was in May. June and July I didn't use any opk's, I was hoping that I would get pregnant by "surprise". This month was actually the first month I used an opk. I only had to use one this time because I kinda figured out my cycle. So here I am, in my TWW. I'm taking extra caution this time, not telling anyone, except DH of course, he's in on it, but I don want to build up the excitement like last time just to be heart broken. Needing to share and find something to do while I wait, I found this site. So here I am, preying and waiting..... Update: After a bust in August, decided to purchase the ClearBlue Easy Fertility Monitor. September is my first month of use. Got 4 Days of High, and on the 21st got my first peak with the little egg! Update 10/3/08: Just one day before DH's and I 6th year wedding anniversary, we got our BFP!!!! I prey daily that this one is a sticky, and our little jelly bean continues to grow, grow and grow!!!!