06/25/2008 14:02:41

Hey vicky ,im fine ,i have a feeling AF will come because i have no prego symptoms and i always get tiny little cramps about 2 to 5 days before AF shows up,id say she will come the weekend.i started my diet yesterday ,i want to loose some weight ,maybe that will help,i miss my food lol,im going to wait till jan 09 and if im not pregnant im going to get checked out allover ,i want to loose the weight first because that is going to be the first thing they will tell me to do,so if i have the weight issue under control then its full steam ahead ,i as the pree seed goes i think its God you gives us the blessing of a child ,i like to use it bcoz i get dry some times,but when it runs out i wont be buying it again,lol.as for our hubbys i think we should not talk about babies too mush bcoz it does turn them off especialy wen you both are in bed lol,i just seduce him around "O" time lol,hope u are doing fine anyway hun keep in touch hun ,i will let u know if the showsup lol heres lots of  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

06/24/2008 10:29:48

Wow that is uncanny, I don't have spine desease but I have scoliosis if that's how you write it? I have it in such a form that they wont operate on it as I have a curve at the top of my spine and one at the bottom so they kind of pull on one another which stops them from twisting me to a complete bend. Can you still follow lol, but because of that it causes me to have alot of pain some days (maybe like you) I don't know whether I should sit down, lay down, stand up, curl up its so bad but mostly I just get on with it. That's our reason to for trying now for babies as i'm noticing the older i'm getting the worse its getting. My own body weight sometimes seems to much for me to bare let alone a baby bump, so best do it while i'm still young and erm kind of fit

Ihear what you're saying about the owning a salon, that was my dream to but alas......well everything is for a reason and if I didn't have this then I would never of met my bf and he's lovely. I have to say the best thing in my life! Although it wasn't my choice to move to Holland I have to say where I live now is lovely, its a little village just outside of Gouda (don't know if you know Holland) very quaint. Me and my bf are trying to set up business in the music industry. we want to rent out practice rooms for bands and also open a recording studio. We have found a great farm house in the village where we live and are trying to purchase that but it is all a bit of a nightmare and yes scary to! If we fail at this we could loose everything but we're at the point that we have to try. No regrets when we're old and gray of not trying to do stuff! Besides it would create a perfect situation for our future kids. We'd both be home/there for them no stupid office to have to go to. Work from home....perfect! Mind you its all in the very delicate stages at the moment, it could go either way meaning it might not happen at all or all of a sudden it could just work! Its good though as it fills my mind and helps keep me busy and not obsess too much about getting pregnant!

Thanks for the e-mail, maybe I should e-mail you instead as these are starting to get quite long comments lol I don't think that is the idea behind the comment box lol

Welli'm almost done here at work (i'm an hour ahead of you) just 30mins to go then its 17.00 and of home yipee!!

Take care and good luck with the match making

Ohyeah and this is going to be our month, lets keep saying that to ourselves and maybe just maybe they might be listening!

Big hug,Sonja

06/24/2008 08:40:58

Hi vicky,

You seem a bit brighter today are you feeling any better? You definately made me smile, I love you're babbeling, i'm quite good at it myself so babbel away! lol

No worries on the keeping in touch, should I decide to leave tww then i'll drop you a line with my personal email, as long as you'll do the same.Good now that's sorted out, i'm actually at work but its very boring here (loads of time to sit and obsess lol). I work for a project that's coming to an end and boy can you tell its coming to an end almost nothing to do.... So glad me and my partner are trying to set up our own company, that way we will both be home for when we do finally get pregnant and I wont have to work behind a reception any more!! Used to be a hairdresser but due to a bad back and a car accident that didn't help it much I can no longer do that so............got stuck behind a reception "yeah" (sarcastic yeah lol)

All I ever wanted to be was a hairdresser and a mum.....the first was short and sweet and the last i'm having to work really hard at becomming! I know however in my heart that I will become a mum and that its probably not to far away now but i'm just so impatient! Grrrrrr I WANT IT NOW lol!!

As for you throwing your hands in the air at least you didn't throw yourself on the bed crying your eyes out like a crazy person. It was like I didn't have control over myself, silly really.......or just hormones! lol I think it must be normal.....at least I tell myself that then I don't feel so stupid after i've calmed down. I always feel bad after to....but its not like I don't want it for them....I just want it to! Well at least we're not that bad, at least we're not like Mad May from E.E. lol (do u watch that? It's the only UK soap that I watch over here).

See told you I was good at babbling to  whenI get going I can't shut up hahaha. What would we be like if we met, probably no one else would get a word in lol

Wellbest get on with some work.....don't know what.......probably end up on some baby site....again lol.

Take care

06/24/2008 06:27:28

Hey hun ,im doing good but i have a feeling AF will show uo sat,i have no pregnancy sympyoms,i bought preeseed last month it is suppose to be good if u are like me around ovulation i dont see much CM and preeseed is a lubricant that u put inside your private region before u have sex,its sprem friendly and helps the little spremies to swim to catch the egg i bought it on this weg site ,www.accessdiagnostics.co.uk i bought a 12 pk and i got 5 free HPT look it up hun every body is talking about it .xxxnoreen

06/24/2008 03:20:46

Hi ya,

I'mfine thanks had a busy weekend which is always good takes my mind of the whole TTC issue.Really sorry to hear you didn't get your BFP and that the nasty AF arrived! Hope you're ok?Yeah I know what you mean about friends getting pregnant, I to recently found out that two of my friends are pregnant...it seems to be all around me but just not happening for me, I could stamp my feet and yell "IT'S NOT FAIR!" Imean i'm really pleased for them but I want it to, all I keep saying to myself is that my time will come.Hang in there and try not to stress.I think I told you I was going to try the BBT thing but to be honest I think i'm gonna try and give it all a bit of a rest. Still TTC but try to put it to the back of my mind. Maybe then just by chance it might happen and surprise me......here's hoping anyway.I will keep you posted however every month until I get my BFP, i'm not giving up but I just want to try and curb my obsessing. I'm driving myself nuts. Glad I found you to chat to though, funny isn't it like how you said that the internet can open doors to new people. It's one techy invention that I absolutely love!WellI hope you are ok and that you're slowly getting over the fact that  the witch has arrived. Hope she's gone soon so you can get groovin to the bunny hop

 Takecare of you, big hug

06/23/2008 13:54:45

Hey girl im fine ,i an 9dpo so i will test saturday,i agree i wud be lost if i didnt  join this website,i thought i was the only one going thru this pain of wanting to be a mother,Thank God .i hope u get your  verysoon xxxxxxxxxxxx

06/22/2008 13:20:34

 showedup today...a day early at that.  I think she did it just to laugh at me...o well..on to next month! What about you??

06/20/2008 17:00:52

06/20/2008 10:43:21

You are very welcome for the comment! 

Yeah I'm good... I am going to try not to think about ttc so much this month.... just let things happen... take my meds and BD when needed...

06/20/2008 06:22:22

Oh dear!! That is sooo frustrating!!!At least there is a tiny ray of sunshine though amongst all of that.....can't you do HPT tomorrow and see what that comes up with, doesn't the HCG hormone double daily if your pregnant?? OMG i'm going to be on tender hooks all weekend for you!!! Roll on monday!!

I hope you get through the weekend o.k., might be best if your feeling up to it that is, to go and do something nice to try and take your mind of it.

Maybe all of that    sentis doing some good! Hope so!

Take care try to relax and I hope you get better soon to.

Big hug

06/20/2008 02:31:10

Hi hunny,

First of all i'm sending you a big hug as you sound like you need one, secondly breath in deep through your stomach muscles and exhale slowly, do it a couple of times until you feel a little relaxed.I can't tell you to stop stressing as basically you wont because I couldn't turn that of either. Try at least to relax a little bit, don't know if your home or not but put your feet up if you are and try some more deep breathing (do it slowly though and not to much as this could make you dizzy to). What you could try doing is laying your hands on your tummy when you breath in so you can feel your tummy go up and down and concentrate on your breathing, this can help you relax......I know it helps me. (Ooh er I sound a bit like one of those guru's LOL).I think that this is the hardest part, the waiting and the not knowing but hopefully you will soon know what with the blood test and all.I really, really, really hope and pray you get a pos. back.

I'm here for you so just drop me a line and I will reply as soon as I can.

Take good care of your self and if you can't stop stressing then try to relax a little. (If all else fails have a nice cup of tea, England's answer to all problems LOL)

Anotherbig HUG and loads of

06/19/2008 07:11:26

Hi ya, sorry to hear you're not feeling very well!

I'm fine, AF has almost left the building once again and i'm trying to stay positive and not obsess to much (very hard to do!) I'm tryin to stay cool and not stress....maybe I should take up yoga or meditate or something....My bf is budhist by religion and he does that very well, when I ever try to meditate I either start singing songs in my head or think of all the things I need to do or....I just fall asleep LOL. Mind you sleeping is good at least then i'm not thinking about it.

Anyhoo about you being ill....I don't want to help raise any false hopes but I have read that alot of first time pregnant woman get the flu or a cold right at the beginning and indeed blame that on AF being late......so who knows.....maybe.Sorry I don't mean to raise your hopes its just that i'm ever hopefull with you.Let me know what the blood test says.

TONS OF   

anda fairy waving her wand, she might help LOL

06/18/2008 02:25:47

Yeah that would be great or even x-ray vision just so you could take a peek inside to see what is actually going on! lol

Not to worry though you can write me as much as you want I don't mind, next time round it will probably be me doing exactly the same thing. I'm just hoping for you that AF really does stay away this time! It all sounds promising I mean AF still hasn't arrived.....so.....maybe! I'll just keep my fingers crossed for you!I can imagine working in the medical proffession doesn't really help your sanity seeing as you have even more people to ask about possible symptoms! I manage to do that with the internet, I googled everything, headaches, cramps, lightheadedness! Its a good job I sit behind a reception and don't have that much to do other wise I would of never gotten any work done! LOL

Well keep me posted on any details and i'll keep sending you the

06/17/2008 15:51:05

hi, i know the feeling about af its so depressing im day 4 past ovulation another 10 days to wait heres lots of iwill keep u posted hun xx

06/17/2008 10:26:07

Oh yeah that jelousy thing, don't worry about it, its quite natural, of course your gonna wish it was you! I remember when my friend had given birth and I went to see her and baby, ..... I just cried my eyes out! Felt really stupid, I was happy for her but wished it for myself to!When your ready for a baby, your just ready and well that takes its toll if it doesn't happen when you want it to!

I'm just impatient and want it now LOL!