showedup today...a day early at that.  I think she did it just to laugh at me...o well..on to next month! What about you??

You are very welcome for the comment! 

Yeah I'm good... I am going to try not to think about ttc so much this month.... just let things happen... take my meds and BD when needed...

Oh dear!! That is sooo frustrating!!!At least there is a tiny ray of sunshine though amongst all of that.....can't you do HPT tomorrow and see what that comes up with, doesn't the HCG hormone double daily if your pregnant?? OMG i'm going to be on tender hooks all weekend for you!!! Roll on monday!!

I hope you get through the weekend o.k., might be best if your feeling up to it that is, to go and do something nice to try and take your mind of it.

Maybe all of that    sentis doing some good! Hope so!

Take care try to relax and I hope you get better soon to.

Big hug

Hi hunny,

First of all i'm sending you a big hug as you sound like you need one, secondly breath in deep through your stomach muscles and exhale slowly, do it a couple of times until you feel a little relaxed.I can't tell you to stop stressing as basically you wont because I couldn't turn that of either. Try at least to relax a little bit, don't know if your home or not but put your feet up if you are and try some more deep breathing (do it slowly though and not to much as this could make you dizzy to). What you could try doing is laying your hands on your tummy when you breath in so you can feel your tummy go up and down and concentrate on your breathing, this can help you relax......I know it helps me. (Ooh er I sound a bit like one of those guru's LOL).I think that this is the hardest part, the waiting and the not knowing but hopefully you will soon know what with the blood test and all.I really, really, really hope and pray you get a pos. back.

I'm here for you so just drop me a line and I will reply as soon as I can.

Take good care of your self and if you can't stop stressing then try to relax a little. (If all else fails have a nice cup of tea, England's answer to all problems LOL)

Anotherbig HUG and loads of

Hi ya, sorry to hear you're not feeling very well!

I'm fine, AF has almost left the building once again and i'm trying to stay positive and not obsess to much (very hard to do!) I'm tryin to stay cool and not stress....maybe I should take up yoga or meditate or something....My bf is budhist by religion and he does that very well, when I ever try to meditate I either start singing songs in my head or think of all the things I need to do or....I just fall asleep LOL. Mind you sleeping is good at least then i'm not thinking about it.

Anyhoo about you being ill....I don't want to help raise any false hopes but I have read that alot of first time pregnant woman get the flu or a cold right at the beginning and indeed blame that on AF being late......so who knows.....maybe.Sorry I don't mean to raise your hopes its just that i'm ever hopefull with you.Let me know what the blood test says.

TONS OF   

anda fairy waving her wand, she might help LOL

Yeah that would be great or even x-ray vision just so you could take a peek inside to see what is actually going on! lol

Not to worry though you can write me as much as you want I don't mind, next time round it will probably be me doing exactly the same thing. I'm just hoping for you that AF really does stay away this time! It all sounds promising I mean AF still hasn't arrived.....so.....maybe! I'll just keep my fingers crossed for you!I can imagine working in the medical proffession doesn't really help your sanity seeing as you have even more people to ask about possible symptoms! I manage to do that with the internet, I googled everything, headaches, cramps, lightheadedness! Its a good job I sit behind a reception and don't have that much to do other wise I would of never gotten any work done! LOL

Well keep me posted on any details and i'll keep sending you the

Oh yeah that jelousy thing, don't worry about it, its quite natural, of course your gonna wish it was you! I remember when my friend had given birth and I went to see her and baby, ..... I just cried my eyes out! Felt really stupid, I was happy for her but wished it for myself to!When your ready for a baby, your just ready and well that takes its toll if it doesn't happen when you want it to!

I'm just impatient and want it now LOL!

Yeah I know abou the stress factor thing....I keep trying not to stress out but its soooo hard. I don't know about you but for me I find it difficult just to enjoy being with my bf, when we're in bed together the only thing wizzing round my brain is oooh maybe this time, baby, baby, baby not very sexy for my bf. That's why I try to keep alot to myself, don't want him to get effected by my stress, if he feels under pressure then I can totally forget it, if you get what I mean. I'm so glad I found this website!As for you, there is no harm in hanging onto hopes, you never know you might of tested to soon. It could indeed be just the fact that the HCG hormone hasn't risen enough yet....

  I'll keep baby chanting for you to chase away AF!It'skilling waiting though, especially when you think you are, I hate those doubts and I hate the not knowing. Lets face it, did you believe your BFN....I know I didn't not until AF came along, I just thought "stupid HPT thing, you're crap and don't work!" LOLTry not to drive yourself too nutty with it, hang in there!

Keep me posted as i'm on tender hooks here, I might be REALLY far away but i'm right here with you waiting for that BFP!

Take care!

Youare so right, when you're with the right person then you just know....but there are always some with their ready opinion. I tend to take no notice but sometimes its annoying to hear there opinion.

I have to say that I am kind of getting to the point of maybe I should give it all a rest for a while. I think i'm ahead of you cause this time just gone I really was heading for the funny farm lol  I'm driving myself nuts almost every month and I to try to hide most of it from bf don't want to eventually drive him insane to. I think I will try the BBT then give it a rest for now at least. We're also trying to set up a buisness together so I really should be concentrating on that. I mean that will give us and our future family a great start in life......its just hard letting go of trying so hard!Maybe if I can let go a little that's when it will happen....

I'm fine thanks, i've got over the fact that AF arrived, just like you a bit annoyed. I to had symptoms that I thought too real to be just my body faking it and absolutely convinced myself this was the month! I even had spotting what I thought was implantation, don't know what that was all about! Sorry to hear you to had a BFN, its heart renching and also annoying all at the same time. For me I never really know how to feel, so i'm still trying the "oh well there's always next time" approach.....i'm just not very good at convicing myself! Welldon't get to low.....there's always the next try

Takecare of you and lots of

 sentyour way