positive vibes fading : /
So tomorrow is my long awaited doctor appointment. I have been looking forward to this for so long. my appointment has been changed 6 x this month but I have been assured that it wont be changed again. I adore my doctor. He delivered my little boy 4 years ago and revived him (born blue) sadly my little guy only lived for 3 days but I am so thankful my doctor gave me those beautiful days with my son. My doctor also sat with me in the recovery room after my ectopic 2 years ago as I explained to him while bawling my eyes out that the doctor who did the surgery told me he removed my tube and my other one looked like it was no good. My doctor said "Were gonna look ourselves and figure it all out" ( the other doctor was pushing ivf) my doctor sent me for the dye test and my remaining tube is in excellent condition. so now after trying on our own for 2 years and me realizing im not ovulating every month I have an appointment to discuss my options (Im thinking maybe clomid??) So why after such a long wait, and me being so excited am i feeling down about this? I suddenly am a nervous wreck and Im really scared. Maybe Im scared of more bad news? maybe he will send me home and say "just keep trying"???
Also I tested today at 10 dpo and it was bfn.Not that Im shocked but I guess I was holding onto the hope that maybe I could do it without help.
Trying so hard to not lose my positive attitude. please send me some positive vibes ladies : )