Thanks for your post! I'm really glad that there are other people out there who may be disappointed about gender etc. I am not there yet (only 11 weeks), but I am already nervous about gender reveal.
I feel like my family-- DH, DH's mom, my mom-- they are all hoping for a boy. My DH always gets really excited when he talk about playing ball with his son, but whenever I mention the possibility of we having a daughter, he'd always get mum and sort of goes silent.
Both my mother-in-law and mother talk about the baby as if it's a boy. They both have the idea that it's better to have a boy first.
I think I'm indifferent between girl or boy, as long as she/he is healthy, but I'm terrified that it will be a girl and everyone will be so disappointed. For these reasons, I'm partially hopeful that it's a boy too. I feel terrible for feeling like this (i.e. wanting a gender more than the other). I hope the baby can't read my mind or sense what I'm typing, ha!
I've thought about not finding out the gender too. This way we all have something to look forward to and it will be a wonderful surprise either way. Though a part of me is also curious.
But, I'm also afraid of feeling disappointed. Ugh! Can't make up my mind.