Having a hard time prepairing for the baby.

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Having a hard time prepairing for the baby.

Postby J_blackrose » Mon Sep 14, 2009 10:02 am

any one else have a hard time with this. I just started buying things for little Aryn. Instead of being excited I am down. I keep on waiting for the other shoe to drop so to speak. Buying anything for this little girl just seems so hard.

I lost my last pregnancy just short of my second trimester and I am far passed that now. I don't know its just hard for me right now.
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Postby jellybean » Wed Sep 16, 2009 11:27 am

I felt the exact same way. As we were buying things and decorating the baby's room I kept feeling like sonething bad would happen and we would never bring baby home. I dont have great advice but know you are not alone. BTW everything turned out fine!
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Postby shyviolet » Thu Sep 17, 2009 7:41 am

I know how you feel. I had my m/c at just under 11 weeks. When I was pg with my son, I refused to buy anything until I was well into my 2nd trimester, and when I did buy something I didn't have any fun with it b/c I ended up being all freaked out that buying something meant I was going to jinx things and lose the baby. Superstitious I suppose, but that's the way I felt. The way I still feel... I don't want to buy anything for this new baby either, not yet anyways.
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Postby J_blackrose » Thu Sep 17, 2009 8:20 am

glad to hear I am not the only one. My husband keeps on tell me that every pregnancy I had other then the one I lost I was fine by this point. I know he's trying to help but its just scary. I told him till the baby is here I am gonna freak out till she is here.

thanks for letting me know I am not alone.
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Postby Amidala » Thu Sep 17, 2009 12:29 pm

I felt the EXACT same way. I don't think I believed I was going to end up with a baby until they took Aubree out of me and I saw them put her on the warming table in the operating room. I know what you mean about waiting for the "other shoe to drop." The whole time we were decorating her room or when I was registering for my baby shower, or even when I was at the shower itself, I still felt like something bad could or would happen.

I don't think you'll relax until you're holding your baby. Of course, then another kind of worry kicks in and you start worrying about the healthy of the baby. Aubree had some pretty bad jaundice and wasn't lost quite a bit of weight after her birth. So I went from worrying that I would ever have a baby to worrying about her health and if she would be okay.

Just try to stay positive and remember that you're in the third trimester already and almost at the end! Everything will be fine and soon you will be holding your little baby. :-)
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Postby J_blackrose » Thu Sep 17, 2009 1:05 pm

Yeah we had some serious issues with our oldest as well. But she's a perfectly healthy and happy 9 year old now.

at least i am in the home stretch now. and I have My oldest girl itching to get things for her little sister.
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Postby memeiring » Fri Sep 18, 2009 11:21 pm

I felt exactly the same, too. I was so, so scared that we'd end up with all this stuff and no baby and that we'd have to get rid of it all cos it would be a constant reminder... I remember I didn't even feel happy when people gave me presents. Of course I acted happy, but inside I was terrified that we'd never get to use it. And to be really honest, I was also so scared of "jinxing it". Sounds crazy to me now, but I couldn't help it.

It was only when I got to those last few weeks that I relaxed a little and felt more confident i.t.o. getting stuff.

Hang in there. What you feel is normal. You are not alone.
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Postby J_blackrose » Mon Sep 28, 2009 9:33 am

I just wanted to say thanks. it'd helped a lot to know I wasn't the only one feeling this way. I am starting to get more and more productive about getting things and getting ready for Aryn to get here.
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Postby kaw » Mon Sep 28, 2009 6:55 pm

totally normal... i was the same situation..was 12 weeks though bubs had died at 8 weeks and with E's pregnancy I just couldn't relax..and I didn't till he was about 6 months old..totally normal..
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