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i hate this

Postby Ashley E » Fri Sep 06, 2013 7:12 am

I hate not being able to get excited or talking about names and future plans, etc...My dr asked me how I felt, if I felt it was going to last or not because he said a mother's intuition is usually right....well , i have no intuition on this one. Of course I don't think it's going to make it...why would I? Is that my intution? No...I don't have one. I hate getting ultrasounds because it just gets me excited and I don't want to get excited. I don't want to talk about it. My tummy is already showing a bump and I just keep thinking it's going to go away any day...I hate feeling like this :(

Sorry for the rant...I just needed to vent...
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Re: i hate this

Postby Kryssy » Sat Sep 07, 2013 7:24 pm

I didn't want to just read and not post. I was in exactly your shoes 3 years ago. I lost 4 babies all in a row and when I got pregnant with my son my first thought was to start crying and ask Why? Why did I have to lose this one too!! It never even occurred to me that it might stick. It is a horrible place to be. I am sending you positive thoughts and hope this is your rainbow.
Me: Kryssy 32
DH: 28
DS: Born Dec. 27, 2010
DS: Born Aug. 30, 2012
DD: Born Dec. 12, 2013
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Re: i hate this

Postby Ashley E » Tue Sep 10, 2013 12:35 pm

That means so much to me. I feel like such a horrible person to feel this way, so I am so glad to know I am not the only one.

Thank you.
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7/12/2013- Surprise BFP :)
EDD March 21st, 2014 *stick, stick, stick*

It's a girl!!! Addy Scout Egerdahl <3

*Two angels in Heaven*
2/7/13 ~11 weeks
5/6/13 ~ 6 weeks
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Re: i hate this

Postby blessedwithonemore » Mon Nov 04, 2013 8:00 am

I am so sorry for your struggle, but you are not alone...
Once you have experienced that depth of loss, it is hard not to try to prepare yourself for that devastation again...
stay strong and positive!
You are in our thoughts and prayers!
Hugs!
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Re: i hate this

Postby brandi1026 » Tue Nov 05, 2013 8:57 am

I completely understand where you are coming from. I want to plan and to buy things and do all of that, but I'm scared it will just be a waste of time. I can't tell you anything that will make it easier, but just try to stay positive. Be cautiously optimistic, that's become my motto these days. Good luck!
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