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~*Rainbows*~

PostPosted: Sat Jul 19, 2014 3:47 pm
by Kandi
Hi ladies!
I just wanted to start a topic for ladies who've gotten their rainbow :bfp:
I just found out today that I am expecting. I originally had gotten a bfp in December of 2013. That pregnancy turned out to be a blighted ovum and I miscarried in Feb. I struggled with retained tissue and waited 5 months for a real AF to show up again.
I feel very lucky to have gotten a :bfp: today but I am also very scared. No longer am I so naïve to think that in 9 months I will actually have a baby.
Hoping to share this journey with other ladies also pregnant after a MC. I think our journeys through pregnancy will be slightly different from others who have not experienced a MC.
:)

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PostPosted: Mon Aug 18, 2014 6:28 pm
by AussieMumma90
What a great idea. At nearly 19 weeks im so nervous something wrong is going to happen. I am always looking for any small bleeding everytime I wipe! Its so different after a loss. At this point with my dd I was completely relaxed. I don't think i will ever completely relax until bub bub shows up!

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PostPosted: Sat Aug 30, 2014 7:05 pm
by mrsm44
Kandi, so sorry about your experience! I feel the same way about not being naive about automatically bringing home a baby in 9 months. My mom is so excited that I got my rainbow BFP. I am afraid to get excited! Both our mothers were like 'well, lightening doesn't strike twice!'...they don't understand that my chances of having another baby with a Trisomy is much greater. The first time, it was 1 in 10,000. Now, it is 1 in 100. 1% doesn't seem like a lot, but I just can't help but feel like even though I have my BFP, I'm still not going to have a baby in 9 months. I know it sounds negative, I just don't want to get my hopes up. Not in my wildest dreams did I think my last pregnancy would have ended at 21 weeks, and my little boy have everything that could be wrong with his little body happen to him.

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PostPosted: Sun Aug 31, 2014 3:21 pm
by Kandi
Mrsm I could not imagine loosing a baby that far along in a pregnancy. I lost mine at 10 weeks and it was devastating. 21 weeks. My goodness. You are a strong woman.

I'm having a rough day today. This weekend was my predicted due date for my first pregnancy. So emotionally I feel exhausted. I slept all day yesterday because I didn't want to deal with it. Today is another rough day. I should have had my baby by now. Instead I'm only 10 weeks along and scared to death I will still loose this one.
To top off an already shitty day my sister in law went into labour today and had her baby boy on MY due date. I was so pissed off and angry. It seems like they always get what they want. I haven't been dealing with it well. It is my nephew but I feel like I have been destined to hate that baby forever. I know I'm probably being a crazy emotional pregnant lady but it's like just one more knife in a rough journey.

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PostPosted: Sun Aug 31, 2014 3:50 pm
by mrsm44
Kandi, every woman that experiences a loss, no matter how far along, is strong. No matter how far along you are, it's devastating. I am so glad that we are both here, and hope that we have our happy ending! I totally understand how you feel toward your nephew, and toward others that always get what they want. I work with children that have anything from ADHD to ODD or Schizophrenia. A lot of these parents have six children, live in a trailer, didn't finish high school, there are three different fathers and they have no food. It outrages me. I feel bitter all of the time, given what I had experienced. My DH and I will be amazing parents...but have our BS and MA degrees, and yet we had to go through a loss at 21 weeks? Really? One of my moms is pregnant with her 7th! I completely understand how you feel.

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PostPosted: Sun Aug 31, 2014 4:12 pm
by CrunchyMama
We have a lot of Rainbows on here and its a sad but exciting thing.

I totally could not imagine 21 weeks loss at all! I know with this one the day i was able to hear the heartbeat at about 8 weeks on my home doppler i used it every morning until i felt movement every day.

Now she is on a movement routine and i cant recall the last day i used it. We all go through a lot and i am glad to have experienced a MC because it makes me appreciate things like my growing baby and how much work it is much much more.

I have relaxed a lot, i was bleeding for a whole month during this one but everything turned out fine after time. I am lucky to not have that fear anymore of her not making it, but i know how hard it is for others and how it was in the beginning!

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PostPosted: Thu Sep 18, 2014 5:42 pm
by Kandi
Just checking in with my fellow rainbow ladies!
How is everyone doing?

I had an ultrasound yesterday at 12w4d, measuring at 12w6d, and heart rate was 147! So glad to see things progressing normally this time around.

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PostPosted: Fri Sep 19, 2014 5:44 am
by ekkotack
Hi! 7 weeks here. Saw the HB on Monday and it was the most amazing thing!!! Feeling very positive about this pregnancy :)

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PostPosted: Fri Sep 19, 2014 11:22 am
by Kandi
Glad to see you on this side ekkotack! It's been too long.
Glad you got to see the HB so early! I got to see it for the first time at 8w4d!
Do you have more ultrasounds scheduled? I just went for my third at 12w4d.

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PostPosted: Mon Sep 22, 2014 5:37 am
by ekkotack
Hi Kandi! Yes, it's great to be over here. Not sure when the next US is. Might just be the 20 week anatomy scan but i'll find out tomorrow.

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PostPosted: Mon Sep 22, 2014 12:42 pm
by Kandi
I would hope they would do more, especially with the history. But each doctor is different.
When are you due?

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PostPosted: Thu Sep 25, 2014 5:58 am
by ekkotack
Due on 5/7. They'll check on baby with the doppler at each visit, so that will give me enough assurance. Can't wait to hear the heartbeat again!

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PostPosted: Thu Sep 25, 2014 9:22 am
by Kandi
FX this is a sticky bean ekkotack!
I'm almost at the 14w mark (due March 28)
Starting to feel more excited then nervous now.
I'm also starting to let more people know too

Re: ~*Rainbows*~

PostPosted: Mon Oct 06, 2014 11:29 am
by Kandi
Welcome snooker.
It's not exactly a club anyone wants to be a part of, but definitely helps to have other ladies who've been there :)

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PostPosted: Mon Oct 06, 2014 4:01 pm
by Kandi
I was! Good to see you on this side too :)