I just gave birth to my preemie on Saturday February 12, 2011. She was born at 33wks and 6days. She weighed 4lbs 8oz and 17 3/4 inches long. She seems to be doing well. She had a cannula the first night and they took it out. She's now maintaining between 98-100 on her oxygen level. She had a feeding tube in, but she ripped it out today and since she's been bottle feeding really well so far they haven't put it back in. She was moved from the isolette and off the warmer into an open crib today, and she's maintaining her body temperature. So these are all good signs, right? To me, I feel like that's alot of progress in 2 days, and I wasn't preparing myself for any setbacks, until the nurse told me today that I should expect setbacks because they will most likely happen. She said that setbacks are common and pretty much expected with preemies. That's not what I wanted to hear. I've been so excited by her progress and I was starting to feel a little better and now Im back to constant worrying again.
I want to be there by her side every minute of everyday but I also have a 13 yr old at home that needs me too. Every time I leave her to come home I feel guilty, and I feel guilty when I'm away from DS. I'm physcially doing well, but mentally and emotionally I'm drained and exhausted. I feel like nobody around me understands.
The monitors and alarms freak me out, and I can't tell if they're going off for a reason or if it's nothing. For example, my daughter's alarm went off today because the monitor said her HR dropped into the 80's. When I questioned the nurse, she brushed it off and said there's nothing wrong with her HR and hasn't been since she's been there and told me to let her worry about the monitors, and that I should just focus on the baby. They never really explained much to me, and I can't help worry when her alarm goes off and the monitor shows her HR is low. I guess I'm confused on how to tell if it's something to worry about or not, and why it wouldn't be something to worry about. They won't even give me an estimate on how long they expect her to be there. That's frustrating too. I know she's in the best place she could be right now, and I certainly don't want to rush it, but it would be nice to have an idea. Sorry to unload all of this but I have nowhere else to vent right now. Any advice or feedback would be appreciated.
UPDATE!!!!! Emma's now eating 35ML's every 3 hrs from a bottle, and doing GREAT! She's had no serious problems. She's in an open crib, off oxygen, no more feeding tube, and they took her IV out today. She's on a bili blanket, but her jaundice is very mild. Her level was at 10 they said that's actually borderline for her age and size but he wanted to treat her anyways to catch it before it got any worse. I got to talk to her neonatologist today and he said she's doing fantastic, and as long as nothing changes, she'll be coming on Sunday! She's mostly staying to be on the bili blanket and finish her antibiotics, other than that he said everything she needs to do in order to go home, she's already doing. We're supossed to take her car seat in tomorrow so that she can do the car seat test. If she passes that tomorrow then we got it out of the way, if not her nurse said we can try again Friday or Saturday that way we have more opportunity to see if she passes so she can still come home as scheduled. We're excited, and relieved, but still a little nervous and trying not to get our hopes up, just in case.
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on Wed Feb 16, 2011 8:45 pm, edited 1 time in total.