Hello all you lovely ladies. Like many of you, I've stalked this website for months looking for clues and finding community. Like many of the BFP posters, this month was one month that I wrote off from almost the very beginning because I had so few symptoms. Then again, there were a few things that had me wondering.
I am 35, my husband is 38. We knew that it would take us a while to conceive at our age, but it's still so hard to go through the TWW every month and hope and hope and hope and still be disappointed. We've been trying since this summer and (again, like many of you) I thought I was pregnant every month only to feel that sinking feeling when AF arrived right on time.
This month we tried to take a relaxed approach to BD--previous months of trying and not succeeding had certainly led to some performance anxiety for my poor DH. So we lit candles and had fun (of course I still used OPKs to pinpoint when exactly ovulation was occurring). We used Pre-Seed each time, mostly because I read on this site how much it helped. :) I took pre-natals and used FertiliTea for the past 4 months. I have a regular 30-day cycle, but my luteal phase is 17 days long--this means that I ovulate around day 12, and then wait...and wait...and wait. The TWW is more like a two and a half week wait for me. Here are my symptoms by DPO:
CD 12: +OPK, BD (we had also BD'd the day before just cause we felt like it). I also had acupuncture on this day, just by coincidence. She did a special treatment right on my ovaries and uterus.
CD 13: -OPK, BD (pretty sure this was O day)
1 dpo: BD, prayed with my husband for our baby to come
2 dpo: nothing out of the ordinary, prayed
3 dpo: gassy (was this a coincidence? It seems to be a trend for BFP stories...) :)
4 dpo: gassy
6-11 dpo: NO SYMPTOMS. This was *very* different from past cycles where I had sore bbs, nausea, the whole nine yards. In fact this is when I began to write off this cycle because "we didn't try hard enough." I still obsessed, don't get me wrong, but I was feeling dismayed to have no symptoms whatsoever. The one thing I noticed was some twinging in my ovaries and uterus. But as you all know, twinges happen all the time if you are looking for them. I still prayed everyday and asked my child to join us when he or she is ready. Because I had no symptoms and had seen so many BFNs in previous months, I didn't test. I was scared to see another BFN.
12 dpo: I felt some unusual achiness in my left ovary. Very different from "cramps"--like a strong burning or pressure feeling in the left ovary and tube. Again, this was odd and different from the "twinges" of previous months of trying.
13-16 dpo: NO SYMPTOMS. In fact I felt like a million bucks, which is not the norm for me when AF is approaching. I felt high energy and happy. One thing that did not make me happy is that my face broke out like crazy--like 3 times worse than it ever does. But I figured it was just PMS and tried to deal with it. I did have a teensy bit of brownish CM once when wiping, but AF was due the next day, so I didn't dare get my hopes up. I stocked up on pads and prepared myself for another month of trying. Continued to pray that our baby would come at the right time. Really tried to find trust in God's timing.
17 dpo: AF due. Usually I start to spot a day before, then bleed heavily right on time. Not a spot.
18 dpo: Not a spot. Felt a little strange. Like a "full" feeling after eating--not nausea, but fullness.
19 dpo: Had to test when I woke up without a spot. Snuck out of bed before my DH and used a CB Digital test (left over from previous month). Pregnant!!! I brought it back to DH in bed and handed it to him. He was so sleepy he didn't know what was going on! We just held each other and prayed.
I wish all of you baby dust, and lots of love for you and your family while you are trying. It's not easy, and it's so wonderful to find communities like this online where people support each other. I encourage you to try acupuncture if you haven't before--it is clinically proven to help with the ever-elusive "relaxation" that can be so hard to find when you are TTC. God bless.