This has been a long journey for me, and thanks to God it is just beginning! My husband (38) and I (35 tomorrow) have been TTC for almost 2 years. In Feb 2011, I had my tubes "put back together". In April 2011, I was ectastic to fall pregnant already, but that ended in a miscarriage at 5 weeks. We have been trying since then to have another baby. In Feb 2012 I had to have LEEP surgery done because I found out I had precancerous cells ( the stage just before cancer). Every month since then I would have brown spotting a week before my period would start. It wouldn't look like blood, just old brown tissue. A few months ago, I got really serious and starting charting and using OPK's. I was happy that I ovulated but worried that nothing was happening even though we were BD'ing at the appropriate times, using preseed, taking vitamins. And to top it all off, my cycles started getting shorter and shorter, so I took matters into my own hands ( without consulting a doctor) and bought some soy to use on CD 1-5 and progesterone cream to use on cd 17--->AF. Please don't do this on your own without medical advice, as it caused me not to ovulate that month. I dont know if it was the soy or progesterone but that is the only month I did not ovulate. Like alot of other ladies I was hoping for the Christmas BFP, but all i got was a 7 day painful Aunt Flo. I was very sad that day but did take a moment to stop and pray about things, thanking God even though I was sad. There is a reason for everything. The verse "in everything give thanks; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus". I figured it wasnt my time yet, but knew He could make it happen if it was His will.
This month, I kept up with the charting, my temps and OPK's looked great. I bought a new brand of OPKs which caused me to get 4 days of positive OPKS. I was very confused by that. (I am guessing it was the brand, that has never ever happened with the internet cheapies I order from pregnancy test.com)
My temps were low during AF then rose significantly after O. I even had some EWCM this month, which is usually scant. Hubby and I BD'd only the day before and day of ovulation. Then my heart dropped again when i noticed the brown spotting 8 days later. I had a mini breakdown there on the bathroom floor. Once I was done having my pity party. I told God that I surrender it all to him. Im done temping, done trying so hard...its His now.
I was a little down but I felt free somehow, like a weight had been lifted from me. Yesterday while in the bathroom, I noticed a CB digital test and I fought a small battle with myself, trying not to use it because, - hey- I was spotting, AF was due anyway, right?
I took the test, braced myself for disappointment, then went in the other room. When I came back I glanced at it expecting the worst, but had to do a double- take...BFP! I was so happy. Still a it worried about the brown spotting so I called the doc today. She said that some women just do that and not to be worried unless i see red blood and have cramping. She said it was ok to continue the progesterone cream.
CD16- EWCM, ovulation pain and cervix was medium soft and open
CD17- EWCM, more ovulation pain, cervix was so high I couldnt reach it, BD in the AM- used instead soft cups for the 1st time
CD18- EWCM, positive OPK, BD AM and PM that day- used instead soft cups again, developed a respiratory infection
CD19 (1dpo)- respiratory infection getting worse, positive OPK again, too sick to BD, didnt notice any CM
CD20 (2dpo)- have a fever of 101 today, feel like I have the flu. I go to the MD and she give me antibiotics to take, creamy CM
CD21 (3dpo)- positive OPK, still feel horrible so no BD again, CM has dried up
CD22 (4dpo)- no CM, started using progesterone cream that you rub on your skin morning and night, still sick
CD23 (5dpo)- sticky CM, nothing else
CD24 (6dpo)- creamy CM today, nothing else
CD25 (7dpo)- sore boobs, dry CM, so so so tired slept alot, thirsty for water. In the middle of the note woke with the stomach flu this time vomiting and diarrhea lasted for at least 4 hours. Nice to get sick on top of being sick. :(
CD26- (8 dpo - BFN) sore boobs, notice the usual pre- AF brown gunk when i wipe so this is when have a cry on the floor, this is when i had all i could take and gave it up to God, had some cramping for a short time (1 minute? ) while laying in bed that night
CD27- (9dpo) My boobs hurt so much worse than yesterday, twinges in absomen all day, the brown spotting continues
CD28- (10dpo)Spotting continues, boobs a little sore.
CD29- (11dpo) Spotting continues, boobs a little sore.
CD30 (12dpo) Spotting continues, boobs a lot more sore than yesterday...test and BFP! with CB digital!