As for me.....
I've never had a problem getting pregnant. I've seen friends struggle and have miscarriages. I've cried with them and prayed for them. I've witnessed miracles. This time I'm learning that its never been in my hands that when I say God is sovereign that I have to be willing to be tested in this area and God is sovereign. As a women.. I struggle with trying to control my hubby, my kids and yes even the dog. I want this picture perfect life that is not reality and God is teaching me to let it Go! His ways are better than my ways and He is working all things out in my life for good! In order to cast my cares at His feet I have to humble myself under His mighty hand, but if in trying to be in control then I'm relying on myself to get things done. I get frustrated and angry when they don't happen. I've walked through the dark valley of adultery that hurt so bad I could barely breathe but tasted the goodness of God through forgiveness and redemption. I'm still learning and wrestling with His truth but I've tasted and seen that God is good! He is for me and not against me! I wrestle with the world, my flesh and the devil. God has a rescue plan for all of us through His precious Son, Jesus. Who willingly laid His life down for ours. Trust Him... He's good and want to give us the desires of our hearts when we delight and find life in Him. So... Here's to stepping in to the rest of my childbearing years trusting Him, His perfect will and perfect timing. Children are a blessing but they aren't for making us happy. That's being selfish. Our "hearts are restless until they rest in Him" -Augustine
No spouse, child, animal, friend, substance can fill the God sized hole in each of us. We are all made in His image. We are so precious to Him. Let go of the control and find His presence in the present. In the now, today!
Blessings in Christ. I pray more than babies that each of you will taste and see that He is good! Choose today who you will serve for me... I'm letting go of control.