Every time a bell rings, an angel gets its wings...
And every time I pee on a stick somebody else gets pregnant.
Hey ladies! I haven't been here for a while. Well, truth be told, I've been lurking in the shadows like a symptom spotting addict looking for my next fix. However, I haven't been posting much. Mostly because I usually don't know what to say. What can I say that all of us ladies haven't said, heard, read, and cried about a thousand times and more?
I've been biting my tongue for a couple years now...thinking if I hush, the universe won't know how badly I really still want to be a mother and I'd actually be allow to have a baby. Crazy, I know! But this is what ttc does to me and I'm sure there a zillion ladies out there who can relate.
I've also been hanging in the shadows because I know there are sooo many other women here who have been through sooo much more... Who have been trying for much longer, and have put forth much more effort than I have so far. I've felt like I had no place to be on here venting about my story and my feelings.
Then, I see the perfect little newlyweds who are just blessed with conception at the time they had planned... Bless your hearts, but you make me sick lol <3
Then there's people on here talking about their unwanted, unplanned pregnancies...
I go through so many emotions on this site... Empathy, warm fuzzies, jealous, hope, anger, inspiration, fear.
And then I realize that's what we're all doing. We all have different stories. We all have different bodies, backgrounds, dreams, advantages, disadvantages. We're all just beautiful women trying the best we can to make it in a world that can be ugly and cruel.
So, I'm back because, I've realized it's okay that I haven't suffered as long as others and I don't have much experience to offer. But, I just appreciate having a group of such amazing women who make it so easy to be open and communicate about such deeply personal matters in our lives.
I'm back because I am determined to become a mommy. I'm going to have my baby and I know most of you are hoping the same. Im back because I need you ladies on my side. Someone I can be open with. I have my DH and he is amazing. We do talk, but you ladies know how it can be. Sometimes you just need other girls who can relate :)
Oh! I almost forgot about the Vitex! I used to take it but just stopped for some reason. I've been considering restarting it and went for it today. I started my first dose again this morning. I also take prenatals and folic acid which my gyno did suggest.
Fingers crossed and babydust to all!